Feeling your way to the Truth
This has been a season of deep feeling. What perhaps has been dormant or packed away down within our unconscious in hopes of never ever emerging has been resurrected and come into the light of our awareness. This is a time of reckoning. We are undergoing an emotional clearing and like most detox symptoms this clearing may be comfortable at times though its purging fortuitous.
Maybe for you it is a personal experience of old emotions surfacing that command attention. Old grief from losses you thought you already dealt with,
fears that normally stay subdued building in volume
anxiety that is affecting your body, sleep in more pronounced ways,
dreams may have more disturbing, emotional content,
Perhaps you feel more triggered and sensitive around others to name a few possibilities.
Diving into the Depths
Personally, I have long avoided facing the deep grief within me. I feared it would destroy me, wreck my productivity and that I would drown within it. Some recent events in my life opened the gates to my grief. This time I decided not to resist the deep, rushing waters. What I have found is that underneath them, was the invitation, desire and experience to learn to actually, honestly, and in moment to moment love myself enough to honor what I really desired in my life in the form of relationships and to tenderly tend to my own. I have experienced deep peace and contentment within these waters.
The Collective Emotional Landscape
Collectively we are susceptible to a lot of collective fear, scarcity, anger and frustration as the remnants of the “old order” crumbling our old ways of finding security and power. Look at the news, the most mind boggling daily events are happening day after day that we simply cannot turn away from. What we all felt we could trust, we cannot. The realness of our humanity exposed and out in the open for all to see.
The Power and Purpose of Emotions
But nothing is ever wasted in this universe and nothing is inconsequential or all doom and gloom. Truth cannot be hidden forever and when the timing calls, it emerges like a dragon breathing fire awakened from a long slumber.
These uncomfortable feelings are not here to torment us into deeper states of numbing, retraction and/or avoidance. Quite the opposite, they are here to free us:
Of the past, that need not continue to be carried forward because the cost is too great.
Of emotional set points that are set too low due to past experiences that caused pain.
Of truths that when faced lead us to new choices using the power of our creativity rather than the power of fear.
The Double-Edged Sword of Fear
Emotions are so powerful. We can halt or avoid steps toward the future that we desire for the fear of failure. We can stay stuck in unfulfilling relationships for the fear of grief & loneliness. We can reduce ourselves, quiet our voices and operate as “good soldiers” for fear of judgment and isolation. We can sustain work that drains us or is not suitable for our level of greatness to avoid the fear of scarcity of money. Fear, one emotion so powerful it can tame us into submission just by whispering our worst nightmare-feeling something we deem so unbearable.
Riding the Waves of Emotion
But emotions are double edged swords. They can cut us down and resign us to toleration and submission to a fear that we can’t prove truthful or they can be ridden like a large wave in creation of a future we can’t know by any other way than the felt experience of the churning caldron of desire for it to be born.
The truth really does set you free and when we feel into these deep emotions that surface and let ourselves touch the vulnerability of this collective human experience, there is truth and wisdom that ensue. We don’t have to be knocked down by these waves, if we stay steady within the knowing that they are transient guests with messages from deep within our own psychic waters.
Embracing the Invitation
The remedy: Rumi said it best…
This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.
These emotions carry an invitation to allow in something new. Emotions, the internal guidance system alerting us to our orientation with our guiding north star. Emotions seek to align us with the deep intuitive wisdom within that knows what we really, really, really really want. When we soften the armor against these “invaders” we recognize their profound wisdom and power to set us free from the past, from misaligned choices and the false identifications with lack.
The choice is always ours, to run, deny and hide or to walk towards those scary places with honest inquiry and openness to be changed and enlightened by them. Will you allow your feelings to elicit the pathway to a new level of freedom? These astrological times urge us to use this stored energy for the creation of what is so ready to be
Truth-Telling Inquiries::
Ask your sadness: How can this reveal what I value and allow this to orient me towards what is important in my life?
Ask your grief: What must I honor and release so that an even deeper desire can be born?
Ask your anxiety: What am I avoiding sensing, feeling, or seeing within myself that feels outside of my compassionate attention?
Ask your fear: Where is the true danger and where must my allegiance lie?
Ask your frustration: Where does my strategy need to be shifted to create more opportunities to move forward?
Ask your anger: Where does energy need to be redirected towards action in better alignment with my knowing/.
Ask your loneliness: Where and how is life trying to allow me to receive more love in new places and spaces?
Ask your surprise: How is this moment a deeper invitation towards what is present and right before me?
Are you tired of running and avoiding your emotions? Ready to change your relationship with them? Willing to face the truth of your emotional wisdom, clear out the old emotional baggage, and raise your emotional set points so that you are free to truly create from a deeper space of knowing and alignment? Reach out to me for complimentary assessment, book a catalyst session or attend my upcoming workshop “How to really, truly feel better!”. There is no better time my friends!
Diving deep with you,
Jill