A Time To Change

Hello friends,

I hope this newsletter finds you well. Since we last spoke my year took on quite a different scene than I imagined. I went into the year full of inspiration of plans for my offerings to you as my community. And then life happened. I ended up with a concussion on my birthday which set into motion a whole recalibration of my life.  I had debilitating headaches for months that stopped me from making many plans at all.  I felt like a stranger in my own head. I was exhausted.  Everything felt difficult. Nothing felt "normal". Making decisions of any nature felt impossible as I truly didn't know who I was anymore. I was in the fog and I didn't much care for it. I desperately wanted to find that woman that was inspired and had a mission.  I wanted to find my confidence, my decisiveness and my task manager. All I found was a woman that felt like all she said was, "I don’t know.” Everything that I knew for certain became questionable. It was so uncomfortable, unfamiliar and annoying. During this time many unplanned storylines were forming and many surprise gifts and teachers were before me, but at first I could not recognize them. One of them was a 3 week trip to Peru in June/July. I turned off my cell phone (other than to talk to my daughter occasionally) and disconnected from my routines and explored a new country and a new terrain within myself and with someone special to me. I didn't have a plan really just the openness to explore, a willingness to be in the moment and an intention to relax and do exactly what I wanted. Granted it had its challenging moments but it was a truly life changing and healing experience. I felt such freedom to be selfish with what I wanted and a blank page for which to experience it through void of expectations, and it landed me in a whole new world. Another surprise gift along the way was connecting to my soul mate, a dear friend I met at work a couple years ago. Through my unintentional experiences I was able to see beyond what I wanted to see and realized what I was looking for was already before me. We are getting married this December and so yet another ripple of change in my plans. Spending the summer simply enjoying my new family life and traveling with my partner has been very intrinsically satisfying.  It has taught me that my new world needs space for Jill, Kennedy, and a plus-one.  

Since returning home from a lot of travel and fun, I have realized things had to change yet I was unsure what and how. I am back full circle to my original quarrel with uncertainty. I decided to take a pause and say no to everything I could until I knew again. I needed some space to figure out what I wanted and why I wanted it. I wanted to question all my intentions to ensure they were purely from my heart and not born out of a need to please or from trying to prove something. Time to face some of my demons that pop up anytime I feel lost and without a solid plan. One told me that I am not worthy unless I am doing and especially doing things for other people. I developed a strong case of FOMO (fear of missing out) when I stopped teaching yoga and stepped away from the community that I worked so hard to find. Would I lose you if I took time out to cultivate my new family unit and give it time and attention?  I also noticed a guilt in being happy (I know crazy how scary that is for me) and savoring every moment of it.  I wanted to reach out and say hello to you all but I didn't think I had anything to say because I didn't have anything tangible to offer you. I don't have a new class schedule, zero workshops on the horizon and really I still have no solid plan for anything, just a few ideas and who knows where they will take me. I guess I realized that I can share what is going on with me. I do this because I want you all to be free to open up, be yourselves and find peace with who you are. I want to build a community that supports, engages and inspires each other to be their best selves by being REAL. I guess I want all this for myself too so I will be the first one in line by doing some deep work with self-honesty. So I am going to focus on my writing for a bit. I am going to be posting on my reflections page here. I will share it also on Facebook (as much as that platform pains me). Here is my request from you: I want to hear from you. Please comment on my writings with how they impact you good/bad/indifferent and share your experiences, wisdom and struggles. Let's hold each other up in just being "real" with life. I wrote more about my struggle with shedding my skin on this post. It is the unedited Jill but it is true.

Classes

For the next block of time I will not be teaching regular classes but I want to connect to you in person so I will be doing some pop up classes on the new and full moon virtually until I can find some spaces to do them in person. I am going to try live streams and I am so out of my comfort zone it is unreal. If you know me, you know I am not a technology lady but I want to try new things and be ok if they fail miserably. I will start here. In these pop up classes I want us to connect to what is going on astrologically and have a chance to be in our bodies and experiences together. I want to see and feel you all and so why not do it wherever we are! My first trial at this will at the start of the Sagittarius season on Saturday, November 23rd at 9am. I am calling this "AstroYoga" and just like my classes we will talk a little astrology, do some yoga and see where it goes!

Here is the link to join.  I am going to try this on YouTube. I will also post it on Facebook and on my events page. 

Sessions

I am still offering private sessions in which we can work with movement, astrology and intuitive guided energy work to "illuminate the path to discover your potential". I want to help you connect to your truth and wisdom by offering practical tools that help you break past the barriers that keep you from your joy. Check out my "sessions" on my website. Email me to schedule a phone, in person or skype session. 

Aromatherapy 

I still love making aromatherapy that helps you attune to the moment in a sensual way. I can also make custom blends for your intentions. My blend for Scorpio season is "Resurrection". It helps you release the old, unmask yourself, transform and resurrect your truth. You can purchase it here. 

I miss you all and I hope we can try to connect in these forums. Stay connected with me on my website, Facebook, Instagram (@jillcasepdx) or send me an email at jill@jillcasepdx.com .Thank you for being my community, for loving me and for supporting me through these huge transitions. You mean so much to me!

Love,

Jill