We start the week with a Monday morning full moon in Aquarius! This full moon is square its Aquarian ruler Uranus in Taurus..feels like like an electric shock start to our week where anything can happen and turn on a dime! Aquarian energy is often associated with disruptions, sudden pivots and liberation from the known through some uninvited chaos and disorder. We are amidst the Leo cycle of energy calling us home to our hearts so that we can show up soulfully to be seen for who we really are. Not the kind of appearance in which we put on a good show for whatever the audience is looking for..aka. entertainment..but to feature ourselves in our most creative and authentic skin. We want to feel it from the inside ; like when we witness an actor or actress really draw from their human experience to portray a scene full of heart and we know they are fully acting..it’s real.

So what stops us from doing this? I mean who disagrees with wanting to show up as the real you? Let’s agree it takes a lot of effort to hide and feign to be someone you are not and not to mention to end result is less than satisfying. But society at times is a strong teacher of what is acceptable and social norms are real. No one really wants to be the lone ranger..to be called a freak and to feel alone after been “seen”. I mean I can surely recall times when I let myself be seen in a new way and was shutdown with judgment or criticism or unwelcome comments that taught my heart to hide and cover up. That kind of pain is real and over time we accept our role as others would want us and not how we want to be. Maybe we even got lots of applause for being the way others wanted us, or compensated really well or maybe we achieved “the dream” or an accomplishment that is supposed to mean “we made it” only to find our heart empty and unrecognizable. I remember being 26 having a wildly “successful career”, lots of money, the house, the car, the husband and I felt completely empty and like I didn’t know who I was. Everyone else told me, “Good job"! What changed? Disruption and a divergence from the trajectory I was on. Did I plan this? Well maybe from an unconscious soul level but nothing in my awareness wanted what was to come. Chaos. Confusion. Starting over. New frontiers. Change. And what came next I could have never imagined but somehow it aligned with the deepest part of me in a very strange and usual way. I lost myself and in the process found the freedom and space to find my true self.

These times feel very similar. Many of us have lost jobs or our jobs have taken a 180 from the path we thought we were on. Home life has completely taken on a new focus and meaning. Travel is a thing of the past and going to a restaurant is a spa day. Things that we easily dismissed now carry weight and some things that felt essential now seem inconsequential. Life has been turned upside down. And what is happening? Invitations for us to course correct, change paths. re-evaluate our sustainability, re-examine our values again and reacquaint ourselves with the most fundamental parts of life. It is certainly disruptive, confusing, liberating and yet scary as hell. There is not a lot of comfort in the unknown but boy is there space for the new to come in, for inventions, for ingenuity and for out of the blue new paths to be made available. For me, I am considering taking on a 6th grade school pod for my daughter. I never saw that coming, but is there a need? Can I step up and do it? Well, I am damn scared and feel unprepared but I can. Did I have dreams of being a world renowned astrologer, yoga teacher and healer..maybe. Is there another way to skin the cat (no offense cats-love you guys)..possibly? I know I want to make a difference. I know I want to offer something deep and rich to the world..maybe what needs to change is my perception of what and how that transpires. This aquarian full moon illuminates that possibility. Is there a divergent opportunity for you to reinvent who you are and what you do to be more fully you? Can disruption be your ally towards a more sustainable future for you to align more you than you have even been with your essence? Now is the time to sit, breathe, listen and let your higher mind download the update… new options available.