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Sweet Darkness

The week before Christmas is not only filled with the normal holiday hustle and bustle but we have Mercury retrograde, Mars moving into Pisces, the Sun entering Capricorn and Winter Solstice to tend with too! We are in a yin time with mainly water and earth elements present, so life may feel more internal, dark, deep, and reflective. The fire that we have present is a bit dampened with the strong Saturn energy which can be felt as restraint and stern. Yin energy teach us how to receive, release, draw in and restore ourselves. I can vouch that I need some of that after all that has been going on externally in our world and internally within myself. As fast as time and life seems to be moving, we are being called to slow down, reflect, and stay grounded. This is a practice and an important step in integration and initiation into the next phase. Mercury retrograde calls this in through our communication and travel. Mars in Pisces calls us to feel and connect spiritually with what we are doing. Winter Solstice honors the dark. The Sun moving into Capricorn calls us to deal with life in the realm of time and space, karma, and the land of responsibilities and the stuff that takes effort and endurance. This is deep stuff. This is stuff that we cannot blow through or spin with a false positive. This may not be a very exciting time. Life may feel all too serious and heavy but as we know life and growth moves in cycles. There is a time for everything. I find tending to these deeper life cycles is absolutely necessary to be able to enjoy the light and free cycles that will come later. Let's break it all down...

Monday, Mercury stations retrograde at 15 degrees Capricorn. When Mercury stations it will be conjoined with Pluto and part of a square with Jupiter in Libra and Uranus in Aries. This is a cardinal cross. Cardinal energy initiates but the Capricorn side grounds this into the physical forms. Mercury retrograde is a time of reflection with our communications, so what we say, what we write, what we think, how we travel, what we learn and what we are teaching is needing review and perhaps a redo. The sign of Capricorn deals with duty, what we do that we want to be seen and public (the mask we wear), and the traditions of what we have been taught about how things should be and how life is "supposed" to go. The beauty of Capricorn is that through a lot of our life experiences we learn endurance, we learn how to work hard and focus when necessary and best of all we learn the rules of living in time and space and the here and now. Sometimes learning how to play the game is the name of the game and tending to the obvious and mundane serves us best so that we don't get ahead of ourselves. The shadow of Capricorn is that we can get so focused on accomplishing "the goal" that we lose touch with our heart and our passions. We forget that the dangling carrot is meaningless if we have lost ourself in its pursuit. Uranus in Aries is bringing us back to ourself, our desires, what we need and what gives us the fuel to feed our vital energies, what moves us express who we are in our most raw forms.  Otherwise, we are lost serving others desires and disconnected from our instincts that lead us. With Uranus involved this may happen through sudden loss, change, or unexpected a lightening bolt something becomes apparent that we cannot ignore.  Jupiter in Libra (opposite to Uranus) is asking us to expand and deepen our understanding of who we are through partnership, finding balance from polarities, and opening our perspective to be more inclusive of each other and the mirror and insight the other brings to the table. We need people to mirror for us what we cannot see and experience on our own. Take all these aspects and make a soup and what do you get? You get a Mercury retrograde that is pivotal to our evolution and soul journey. We are on the brink of big shifts in how we perceive the world and how we process our life. This takes time to reflect on the messages and the learnings we have been doing and slowing down to see the signs and to learn from our experiences. What is it that you desire? What makes you feel alive? What themes have been coming up in your relationships time and time again? Where do your views isolate and polarize yourself into a corner..where is there room for a bridge, a new perspective? What beliefs and goals do you carry for others that need to be laid down in honor of what speaks to your heart? Where are you standing in your own way for growth? Perhaps these are the questions for yourself during this retrograde that ends on January 8th. We must be clear with ourselves and ensure that the energy and dedication that we are pouring into our endeavors are worth it. New inspirations and intentions are like new plants..easy to kill when we let the obligations to habit and our busyness get in the way. 

Monday, Mars goes into Pisces, a water sign. Mars is not so comfy here. Mars likes to penetrate and assert and is very "me, myself and I" focused and Pisces is nothing about that. Pisces is about dissolving, merging, unifying and taking us beyond what we can know and reason into the realm of infinite potential. This slows down our will to act and assert quite a lot. We may feel a little cloudy about what to do. This gives us a chance to feel, allow, and trust forces beyond what we can see and reason. We get to do it together and we get to remember that most of what we stress over now won't matter a bit in a week or a year or 10 years or lifetimes from now. We get permission to say "it's all good" for a bit. When we also slow down and tune out often it awakens a creativity and a spaciousness that cannot be found in our mad pursuit of what we think we need and how we think it needs to go. There is the quote you may have heard "Let Go and Let God", well that may not work all the time but for now...we could all stand to test this theory a bit. 

Wednesday, is Winter Solstice and the Sun moves into Capricorn. Solstice is time to honor the dark and all that the dark represents. This is the darkest week of the year and as we welcome lighter days ahead it is important to celebrate what the dark allows, quiet, internal focus, and the chance to see what is illuminated for us to lead us forward. This is such deep time to take a look back on your journey and honor what has taken you this far and where you have come from. Honor your roots, they hold an important piece of your story.. 

So, in this dark, deep, slow and reflective time, may we rest in the trust of the cycles of life and the natural cycles and rhythms of our own evolution. Often when we are at our darkest the light comes and inspires a new vision and a renewed hope for what lies ahead. When we allow the pause to fully occur and we rest, we are restored enough to endure what is asked of us in this next chapter. And just when we feel we have no idea what it all means and we let go of the questions and the resistance, we open to support and the answer we never saw coming and we realize we were never lost. 

"Sweet Darkness" by David Whyte

When your eyes are tired
the world is tired also.

When your vision has gone
no part of the world can find you.

Time to go into the dark
where the night has eyes
to recognize its own.

There you can be sure
you are not beyond love.

The dark will be your womb

The night will give you a horizon
further than you can see.

You must learn one thing.
The world was made to be free in

Give up all the other worlds
except the one to which you belong.

Sometimes it takes darkness and the sweet
confinement of your aloneness
to learn

anything or anyone
that does not bring you alive

is too small for you.

– “Sweet Darkness” by David Whyte, House of Belonging


Earlier Event: November 27
Calling our spirits home
Later Event: January 10
Roller Coaster Rides with our Emotions